I'm down here in Italy for about one week now... This means, about 3 pizzas, one new bottle of gaz, a couple of desperate working hours, a couple of new friends, one sun tan, a bunch of new muscles, new roommates and so on...It's nice here.

Yesterday we got our diploma's... It was an emotional moment, everybody there and everybody cared. A lot of people, congratulations, friends...
It's hard to describe, how it is now, when everything is bound to change... I wrote this a couple of weeks ago, it's still the closest I got to how I feel...

Tränen trocknen jeden Traum /und du verlierst den Stand
als ob der Regen riefe / und der Boden tanzen würd
vieles wär jetzt einfacher / als ein simpler Mord
und einfach weitergehen / hat schon so manchen
berührt? / Glänzen deine Schuhe auch
Fressen deine Pferde fremdes Gras / Gestern
in der Zukunft / nur noch Stein
den Rücken runter rollt / ein Stoss, ein Kuss
Lichter werden unzertrennlich / und erwürgen meinen Stolz
und der Sinn / hat kaum mehr Luft
Erwäge das Lachen / herzenserfüllendleer
und du wirst kaum verstehen / warum der Himmel blüht
weil Schmerz zündelt / und Schlaf
fesselt / der Tag
hat heut gewechselt / die Nacht
verbirgt kein Sehnen mehr / gib acht
vor Blumen / die schlecht träumen
vor Worten die nicht / weinen
weil neu / das wars schon
Gestern.

it's just the usual uselss stuff... It helps though :) And now I'm excited, I can't wait.. Ouga, Italy.. Lugano. Life is good to me...

Fire, food and fun. I love our lake.

I'm in a bad mood lately. Waiting makes you going crazy. Life's telling me to wait and see, I keep on wishing for the better.
20 faces are starting to build hell for me, hell are the others surely. I guessed I stopped trying to love'em like they've stopped
trying to be likeable people. It's another 40 days, other people save the world in that kind of time. How sad, I hate this school
right now, this world as well.. but mostly I hate myself for caring so much. I wish I could just sit hear and wait for the time to
pass me by. It won't. I know that I'll be in this "it's nearly over"-state forever. For ever. It's great to paint everything in a devilish,
brutal grey. Coz tomorrow another P.E. class (head keeps on searching for good stuff..) well.. P.E. is cool... I'll stop it. It's
all worthless. And I wanna get away from here.

It's fun that I wrote about having Matuzi finished yesterday.. I'm close (but only close) to freaking out. But I don't wanna tell stories about people's stupidness and mistakes that can happen and all of that sh.. . I'm rather talking about those bloody engery-drink nights. I start to hate that stuff, bloody Gum-bear-juice (sounds great translated) but it's the only things that keeps me going (Besides a wonderful cuppa of course.. check out that scene in the "Shipping news" movie...) Ok, I have work to do. It's good to have a least some people left who hardly care about those stupid little problems, people who are too far away to care...

favourite song quote right now:

the Waifs: People who think they can

People who think they can
People who think they can
I want to be just like those who think they can
I want to be
Not so far away
From where I planned to be by now
Time has a bad habit from flying
I was sleeping when it passed me by
I was dreaming of what I would wear when I go there.
It's not easy being green in a world you have to tread on other people just to find a place to put your wares on show
Its not required that you sing write or play you just wear the tightest one and smile in that certain way
and think you can
People who think they can
I want to be just like those who think they can
I want to be
Not so far away from where I planned to be
Good things come to those who wait
I'm going to lift my head and keep my back up straight
And when it matters most and I can't be found
You just climb to the top and you will find hanging around with people who think they can
People who think they can
I want to be just like those who think they can
I want to be

Easter holidays are just about over. I'd rather finish up my work right now but well.. guess don't really feel like it much. Had two good weeks, well once that bloody Maturazitig was finished anyway :) Now it's five weeks of school... not much aye?! But it's enough... First visitor is still expected :) Welcome welcome....

Yesterday we hunted easter eggs :) Altdorf was stolling around and we were desperately looking for new hints... check out the photo which somehow dissapeared but still appears in the "zufallsbild" corner. that's it for now, it's easter and it's spring and it's summer ;)

Well...
it's done, I just created my own blog.. wasn't that hard, was it?
It took me about 2 years to really decide on it. But now so many things are changing and I'm having a hard time finding people to share that all with (and it's more and me than on them..) So here it is, again, it is already tomorrow and this blog ain't gonna help me to get to bed early ;) but it might help me for other things...
One question seems already to be answered... English won vs. German, well for now it's the right choice. This is it. When you read this Bob then you're probably the first one to do so, it's good having you with me... somehow.