...paralized heart instead of arm...
uff...it's better I'm not going home tomorrow but to Lucerne where I'll meet Isa, Helen and Julia, maybe Lea... It's gonna be good being around them instead of feeling paralized eithere here or in Uri...then Sunday birthdayparty of my dad.
What's happend during the last days?! Last night I stayed up until 3.30 talking to Julia, midnight-beer which basically means "I need to talk"... it felt good, seeing the moon go down, kinda felt like waiting to see the sun go up as well... I mean sleeping is overrated. But then I went to bed anyway, not without writing some lines and not without reading Rimbaud for cooling me down a bit, getting me back to this world. Then last night's dream was a torture to wake up from. As dreams always do, it had made possibile was now even from my point of view seems impossible...
Today I was incredibly happy, given the circumstances of not feeling actually so good. But uni was cool, today was a very strange day as far as university goes. I spoke 3 times, two of whom not only like a couple of words...and I saw heads turning to face me, to see who's that who talks... It felt good, that's me...not bloody afraid of speaking in public. The voting with 16 story came up again, and we were in four (in a pretty large group) who went for it. The rest said no! I'm very surprised about that... I mean I'm and have been for quite a while convinced that it's a good idea... but as I used to think it's normal that my old class didn't agree with me...I thought people here are diffrent, more diffrent opinions and so on...But it's ok, I don't say I'm right there...you cannot know what's right...
Talking about Taboo's I got quite angry with a classmate of mine today... even though I didn't say or show anything... I cannot accept that opinion which I see as a personal violation of my freedom. But I guess at the moment's not the right moment to face those kinda questions...
Badminton was a crack up though, lost all my games today ;) They must've thought I'm even worse than usually, guess am only tired...
that says it all I guess...
What's happend during the last days?! Last night I stayed up until 3.30 talking to Julia, midnight-beer which basically means "I need to talk"... it felt good, seeing the moon go down, kinda felt like waiting to see the sun go up as well... I mean sleeping is overrated. But then I went to bed anyway, not without writing some lines and not without reading Rimbaud for cooling me down a bit, getting me back to this world. Then last night's dream was a torture to wake up from. As dreams always do, it had made possibile was now even from my point of view seems impossible...
Today I was incredibly happy, given the circumstances of not feeling actually so good. But uni was cool, today was a very strange day as far as university goes. I spoke 3 times, two of whom not only like a couple of words...and I saw heads turning to face me, to see who's that who talks... It felt good, that's me...not bloody afraid of speaking in public. The voting with 16 story came up again, and we were in four (in a pretty large group) who went for it. The rest said no! I'm very surprised about that... I mean I'm and have been for quite a while convinced that it's a good idea... but as I used to think it's normal that my old class didn't agree with me...I thought people here are diffrent, more diffrent opinions and so on...But it's ok, I don't say I'm right there...you cannot know what's right...
Talking about Taboo's I got quite angry with a classmate of mine today... even though I didn't say or show anything... I cannot accept that opinion which I see as a personal violation of my freedom. But I guess at the moment's not the right moment to face those kinda questions...
Badminton was a crack up though, lost all my games today ;) They must've thought I'm even worse than usually, guess am only tired...
that says it all I guess...
Rahoroi - 13. Mär, 19:34
